暖暖的秋日里，人也有些闲散。忽的就想起些过往，人说通常老人总会喜欢回忆，为何自己却总爱往回看呢？这样的时间，本是淡淡闲情，却因何难以释怀？想起有人曾言：宠辱不惊，闲看庭外花开花落，去留无意，漫随天外云卷云舒。初听此言，甚觉受用，过着闲云野鹤的生活，远离俗世的悲喜，远离纷繁的侵扰，喜欢恬淡的落寞，可是究竟逃不开。我们总是想象着美好。这么常时间了，感觉有些身心疲倦，生活到底该是什么样子，究竟为什么难以开怀？人说君子坦荡荡，小人常戚戚，自己究竟是哪种人？也许哪种也不是，只是一个小女子；一个自以为是的小女子。有时候我也会反省，自己的好强，自己的倔强是不是值得？难道不是在和自己过不去么？别人都可以好好的，为什么自己不能呢？期待着些许美好，期待着些许淡然，却始终不能超脱。我的淡然只是自己的想象，始终不能放下来真的去做，那我一直努力的是什么呢？也许是我们投入到生活里的太少了，始终期待着生活的给与，每天机械地完成必须的功课一样重复着自己的节奏。我不期待生活总是充满惊喜变数，但是事情总还是接踵而至。不想再去思考，随风而逝的不光逝流转的时光，还有那不安份的心。

秋天，是思考的季节，当冷冷地秋风吹过心头，我们收获的是什么呢？

 

今天是万圣节，虽然没有南瓜，没有西方的热闹，还是要纪念一下，为那些逝去的美好。

God knows why two halves can get together to make one.

Last night, when finishing a two-hour cooking of the sweet potato soup, I felt happy to see such a master piece being finished. I tried the sweet potato porriage with him. I believe he was starving though I had made him a bow of egg. He told me something unexpected_his feeling from like to love. He said in a way of child, very shy but brave. Yep. When first meet, two persons will come together for a kind of like or curiosity. But after a period oif time, this feeling will be blurt. you may think why him/her. The reason seems not important. The important thing is that you are together and you get to think of the other half for no reason. Then you get used to the feeling to always think about the other. It seems natural and you'd like to do anything for him/her. You wanna share. Person becomes unselfish (You see that I believe that people are all selfish in some degree). He said he began to feel the feeling of love. Yes. finally. My stone shines. That is also what I wanna share with him.

有些时候，感觉很没精神，昨天在饭馆把汤撒了他一身，他都没有说我什么，感觉心里满满的幸福。我该感激，生命中有这么一个相扶相持的人。虽然，总是笨笨的

想起去年的这个时间我还在想着如何自己一个人做个快乐的小鱼，穿梭在忙碌的人群，看着别人的幸福似乎也感受着自己的卑微。谁会想到现在我们就在一起了。呵呵，生活，总是让人出乎意料。