Last Saturday, we went to Beijing Animal Zoo. It is a very large park indeed. We try to photo down all the interesting things, while unfortunately, the battery failed at last. But no problem. We still enjoy the tour very much. But frankly speaking, I do not like to see those animals in cages/ So cruel. Especially when I saw a hawk which should be ferocius in the wide, dragging his wings inside the cage. I really don't think it a good idea to keep them in a cage for people to look at. The pandas seemed to be tied of being looked at and just turned their asses towards the crowd. God knows how boring the life in cage is. But I'm just a small potato and have no say. what's more, I enjoy seeing those animals in life when seeing those I've never met before. That's the contraversy. I try to understand the pain of the animals while at the same time, I enjoy seeing those I've never met before. That's fake mercy. I began to hate myself. Yet, I have no way out.

 

Bq said he was nowing eager  to earn money and was haunted by this thought. I feel sad. As i do not want to be busy earn money while forgetting some precious things in life. DEAR BQ, I hope you can get out the maze as soon as possible. I really don't want you to be in such agony of struggling.

 

Money is important but is not everything/ try doing something different^-^

Days are passing by without being noticed. In fact I have little to say these days. But when staying alone in front of the blog, I try to collect my thought on things happened recently.

 

Yesterday, father phoned me telling me that he had mailed me the passport. Thank God! It's really out of my expectation that i can get it in such a short time. Then I will try to get the passport, and then to Germany and Italy for a one-week tour(business unfortunately). But still, it's hopeful that I will have enough time to join the tour. Thanks, father!

 

When visiting a friend's space, I find that he will get a new degree very soon. A new degree at the same time means the stop for a period life as well as graduation. for me, who newly graduated from university, seem to get through the period of wandering and suffering. I feel easy now. At that time, a strange feeling held me. I dont kown how to describe. U feel that u do not belong to that kind of life. You are saying goodbye to ur best friends, teachers even the chef in the carteen, gatekeeper of the playground, the elevator girl, the supervisor of the domitory etc. u feel pain of parting. It'll be memory for lifelong. I'm, not feel bad to step into the society. Only that, I can't shoulder up  the cut up of things that has accompanied me for 4 whole years. But, I have no choice. And I should know the result of refusing to take post gradute entrance exam. It's my own decision to find the true self in a kind of new life. So, I try to get used to this new kind of work life. It's,hum...,not so bad.

 

Yesterday, when back to the school, I feel that I have overcome the pain that graduation brings. I begin to find the direction of new life and I'm trying to find the new self. Anyway, things seems to be hopeful. I will stick on seaching for the new way:) AND HOPE MY NEW FRIEND IN LANCASTER ENJOY THE HAPPINESS BROUGHT BY THE NEW DEGREE